Newsletter #10: Crying Over Weather Changes, Deadlines and Expectations
I don't think there's enough time for things to make sense.
Deadlines & Expectations - An apology
Before I get into my sad writing, I have to address the lack of newsletters in the room. I skipped the Pity Party last month and the weekly newsletters have been paused for weeks now. I would love a grand reason but there is only one: I’ve been uninspired. Unlike other things in my life, I don’t want this to feel like a chore and I hope you understand. So I’m making up for it: Paid Pity Partiers will get an extra newsletter in December and everyone will get a few bonus newsletters. The weekly newsletter will come out on a week day - any week day I choose- so keep an eye out for it.
As always, please share with your friends and post on social media if you feel so inclined. Now, time to get your tissues ready for sad girl hours.
Weather
It is 1 p.m. on a Tuesday afternoon and I feel like I can’t move off of my couch. My work computer is warm on my lap, Slack pings are going off, I have a meeting in 15 minutes, I have had too much caffeine, and half of my to-do list from yesterday became 1/4 of my to-do list for today. I am thinking of how nice it would be to drink red wine out of the bottle and get rid of everything in my apartment. The weather is in the low 50s and yesterday I was wearing shorts. My nose is running, neighbors have their Halloween decorations up and I am mourning.
October is a month of sadness and happiness working in tandem now. Typically, it is a month where I throw myself fully into ‘basic tendencies’ like pumpkin spice lattes, watching witch movies, buying Halloween decorations and doing a range of Fall activities. This October. is different.
I am happy because I start a new position at work. I am sad because I am ending the old one.
I am happy because one of my best friends has her bridal shower, which means I get to stay with another one of my best friends. I spend a weekend in a beautiful sisterhood celebration of different calibers. I am sad because the 4-hour drive home is on my dead aunt’s birthday and I cannot make sense of my crying.
I am happy because I celebrating not only a new position at work, but the anniversary of when I moved back to Pittsburgh. I am sad because I feel like I didn’t stick it out in my last job long enough. to make a difference.
I am happy because I have new friends. I am sad because my friendships are changing.
In October, I am 21 years old getting ready for Temple homecoming. In October, I am my future self putting up Halloween decorations in the windows of my house. In October, I am 8 years old going to Party City with my aunt to get a Halloween costume. In October, I am 15 years old in my writing class trying to get approval from my teachers.
In November, I will be a different version of myself. In November, I will celebrate my friends, holidays, myself and much more. In October, I will wait for November. November is consistently cold, my nose won’t run as much, I will have less to reflect on.
Happy Tears
Making a voting plan. Hot people vote. Your voice matters.
The movie “Practical Magic”
Crying in the Sales Section
Chobani Oat Coffee Creamer in Pumpkin Spice. Nothing more.
Final Thoughts
Think before you react.
Always check if your friend has an affiliate link before buying something.
Take people’s actions at face value.